Broken Bit #78

All my life, I’ve had an unhealthy fear and loathing of mistakes and regret. As a result, I rarely experience deep pains more than once – I make sure of it. This sounds like it could be a helpful quality, but in actuality, it has kept me from exploring the unknown. In many cases, I’ve allowed the pain of regret to shape and define me – a quality I desperately desire to shed.

As a little kid, my father was my superhero! I was a daddy’s girl all the way, and I lived on his lap. Of course, there were couches, chairs, the floor, but if he was in the room, that’s where I planted myself. It’s where I felt most safe and loved. It’s the only aspect of my personality that anyone could consider “needy,” otherwise, I was fiercely independent.

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Even Sharks Need A Safe Place

“When you find a safe place to unravel, when you feel the arms of eternity wrapping tight around you – you stay. You don’t run and hide, or turn and fight. You stay there.” –Elizabeth Maxon


“You have to sleep!” I pleaded.
“I know, babe, I’m trying. I just can’t.”
“It’s been like four days. You’re gonna get sick.”
“I don’t feel good now.”
“Then you should at least talk about whatever’s on your mind.”
“It’s a lot.” He sounded exhausted just thinking about it.
“Well, I’m listening.”
“Sigh… I’m not ready to talk about it yet.”
“I’m really worried about you.”
“I know, sweetheart.… Can I come over?”
“. . . “
“Just for a little while. I just need to see you.”
“What about the rules?”
“I know your rules; I just really need to see you. I won’t stay long. I won’t even touch you.”
“… Okay, come on.”

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